My take on it all

So we stumble through life at times. Sometimes blind, sometimes eyes so wide open it hurts our hearts as we see all the deceitful wickedness that human kind can spill. For many years I kept my eyes almost closed, squinting into the darkness hoping not to trip and fall, just hoping to make it through. No intention to have fun, to find a happy life, to find people who would truly love and care for me. I was tough, but quiet, a steely reserve to see me through all the harsh words and beady glances that I expected the other zombies in life to throw at me.

At night sometime in my sleep I would start to feel a rosiness in my cheeks a happiness in my heart. No sooner had I detected it, it would disappear, a fleeting suggestion, a whisper of deep sound, a moments madness of what else my life could have in store. Awake with me I would carry this seed, a drop of hope a yearning for more, a sneak of possibilities.

Naivety sees us do so many things. It teaches us, molds us. If we are clever we will learn, become happier, become wise. It took sometime, it took hurt, it took pain. But life's upsets led me in the right direction. The mouse gets cheese when it does well, a zap when it goes in the wrong direction.

Exhausted, I ran though the maze, I made it out the other side. Time to think, to collect my thoughts, to stop, be still, wait. That feeling again. This time it's closer. Like a beacon of sound, sound so deep only your heart can feel it. Boom....your bones rattle, it's coming. Cheeks warm, excitement builds, life is a thrill I've never known.

Again, it's there again. It whispers at me, a suggestion of the depth that may very well drown me. Like a warm summers wind it caresses my skin and wraps about me, louder and louder my heart so hungry for this song. I'm lost in an ecstatic crescendo and as I think I may burst and die of happiness, joy, love, completeness and ecstasy I am gently lowered and wrapped in arms that I feel I have always known. Feel a breath that has always been for me , and understand a song that is mine to keep. Gentle warm lips brush my face, a sparkle is in my eye and on my finger. I'm home, he was always here, and here we will always be.

All smiles

Have you ever felt so happy that you thought your face might fall off? It's a surprisingly pleasant sensation.

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The cutest thing I have ever seen!

They are felt dancing shoes from Finland designed so a child can dance while balanced on the parents feet! Awwwwwww!

The new job

So here is the thing, I'm still not entirely sure what it is I do. Just when I think I have some idea of what my duties may entail I learn something else to the contrary.

Today I was in training learning our very old fashioned computer systems called GIS and HUON. I have seen them in my old job before, except they always ran in the background so you never had to interact with them really, they just did their thing. Now however we have to use them directly, which is not going to be a walk in the park.

On another note one of the other new girls is driving me insane. She used to work in the TBC with me before, she's about 20 and although learns fast etc, is actually quite ditsy. She says all kind of inane stupid things and I want to beat her to death with a stapler. Today at lunch she came and sat by me and proceeded to tell me about how she can't eat all kinds of things due to 'allergies' at the same time stuffing her face with bright orange Doritos. She also informed me that the kinds of foods she could eat weren't available in West Perth. Being from the health and nutrition background I am from I didn't know where to start. So I just didn't. Instead I day dreamt about pushing her in front of a CAT bus and giggling as she wet squish.

I read once that what we dislike in others are traits we ourselves have and don't like. I really hope that isn't true.

A Perfect Day

How do I write about this day without sounding totally cheesey?

I awoke this morning from a restful nights sleep to find Tony up and about doing uni work on the couch. Even though he has taken a few days off as annual leave, he still has a big assignment to get through. So I trotted out and snuggled up on the couch with him where I fell asleep again.

After some snoozing Tony decided he needed to pop into work for a few hours to get some stuff done on the server there. This left me time to mooch about in my jammies. I had a leasurely breakfast, watched 'Breakfast at tiffanys' and caught up on e-mails and the like. I also had a very interesting online conversation with a new friend via Last.FM. We talked about the plight of native people in Canada in comparison to those here in Australia. The similarities are startling. He is a geography teacher and a very interesting person to talk with. It's so rare to have an intelligent adult conversation online with a vertual stranger.

By about midday Tony came home and whisked me off to the movies with him. We saw 'Stardust' which I really enjoyed. I always love epic, fantasy type movies set in olden/medievel times, and if it's got cheesy romance in it, even better! After this I drove us home, and we decided to go for a walk.

I have my usual Bibra Lake run that I do, but I have never tried out the one that is more of a bush track. So we decided to explore the new path. I always love walking about there. I feel such a sense of peace and calm. Hearing the birds chirp, the trees russle, frogs croak and crickets sing is just magic. The smell of the bush and watching the light glint off the water just sends me into exstatic sensory overload. So I was in a state of bliss as we drove home.

Tony then went to volleyball, leaving me alone again to do some more online socialising. I spoke to Kirstie for a bit which I always enjoy. Before I knew it Tony was home again and this time whisking me off to dinner in Fremantle. We went to the Bengal Restaurant which is soooo yummy! I just love their butter chicken, and garlic naan bread....droool......

We then walked into the cappacino strip and had a coffe and watched the world pass us by. I just have such an amazing sense of happiness, completeness and well being today. I feel like I'm in some sort of movie about someone with a perfect life. I hope this feeling continues!

Injuries

So I've only just realised these are here, but as lovely reminders from my friends I have a 'love bite' on the left of my neck from Carrie, a hickey on the right of my neck from Matt and teeth marks on my ass also from Carrie...that girl needs a muzzle!

The aftermath

Oh my God! Worst hangover, my brain feels like it's been hollowed out by brain termites. My shoulders are all tight, and I just generally feel like a total mess. I think I need to re-think my partying ways.

I didn't get any actual photos at Parklife, but a few good ones before and after...























I'll upload the rest onto ringo