Turning into a boy
I often joke with my flat mates that I am turning into a boy, but yesterday I shocked even myself. Some of the things that come out of my mouth are appalling. I used to be such a quiet reserved human door mat, and I'm worried that now I'm going too far the other way. Too cocky, too blokey, too rude, too loud, too over bearing and perhaps too full of myself? I don't think people see me as a girl sometimes, but just one of the boys...it's a worry.
Perhaps it is time to take stock, to step back and think...however I could never be one of those needy princess types. I would want to stab myself with a pen, or gouge out my own heart with a spoon if I were like that!
Today is my one year 'anniversary' of breaking up with Tim, oh the irony of going to see a band (with Ben and Rhyll) that we often saw when we lived in Broome. Honestly why do I do these things to myself?
posted by Milly @ 10:48 AM
4 Comments
4 Comments:
Who doesn't want to be a needy princess type though? :) If you know any that are willing to settle .. let me know ;)
Seriously though, girly girls don't need to be needy and needy girls don't need to be princesses adn some princesses are quite independent.
I think needy women are usually doormats by nature? If you're needy you settle.
This is going nowhere fast.
In any case there's not much reason to be anyone you aren't comfortable with because either way you'll attract people that enjoy you. Unless you are a dickhead, but you aren't so yeah dont' worry about having to change.
It's not that I don't like myself, I do. I just think I'm starting to tip over the edge of too much agression, too much negativity in my 'joking' comments. I think if I video taped some of the things I say sometimes I'd be quite embaressed.
I think it's healthy to take a step back and look at yourself sometimes.
And the princess bit, well that just proves you shouldn't do any blogging when your trashed! haha
glad you don't think I'm a dickhead :)
I like needy, girly types ... I've accepted things will be tough :)
I don't blog when I'm trashed.. never ;)
I wrote a really long email to someoen the other night while I was stoned I re-read it and it was actually quite wicked. Lots of stuff I probably wouldn't allow myself to normally think... so maybe it has it's benefits when you use it productively. I didn't feel liek talking, but I sure wanted to write a lot.
I know you like princesses, and I think you're insane! :P
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