This might cause me to jinx myself

I sometimes get the sense that the movie the Matrix wasn't too far off, or what the writers of 'the secret' were banging on about is actually real.

I have an incredibly lucky life, and some days it feels like it's almost to good to be true. I sit here and ponder my life, what I have (and by that I don't mean material possessions), how I got to where I am, and the future lined up for me.

For a long time, through my teenage years and early twenties I let life live me, I was a victim to the world around me. I felt like nothing was in my control, I didn't have choices, I just had chores, obligations; and society had certain expectations of me, which I would bend my will to for fear of being 'weird' or disliked.

I don't know when it changed, but sitting here now, I have sense that I can make ANYTHING in my life that I want, happen. Granted not everything happens as quickly as I would like, but ultimately all of my dreams and wishes are coming true. Oddly though, a few things I have thought that I always wanted, now that I can make it happen, seem less important, or off the radar all together.

If I think about the current run down, I like my job, in fact I like it a lot now it has changed, and I am comfortable in my work place. Tony is the best thing to happen to me EVER. I love my house and my little garden, I think I could be content forever amongst my tomatoes and beetroots. I have more friends than I care to count, and not just acquaintances, but really great genuine friends. My family are amazing, I live in a wonderful country, I have the most loving little doggie, and well the world in my oyster.

All this does however lead me to think if everything is so great all the time, will the lack of contrast, lead to unhappiness? By that I mean you can't enjoy the ups without the down to compare them to. I like to think not, and if life gets me down, I'll just go do something about it.

Here are some of the things that spin me out:
*This time last year there was no way we could afford to buy a house, I thought we'd be 5+ years away
*When we got the house I thought we'd be sooo poor, but with two very generous interest rate cuts we're saving a bomb, and living comfortably
* I didn't think we could afford to get married any time soon, but now we're making it happen
* I didn't think I'd be very good at gardening, but my garden looks amazing, I even inspired Steve to grow some veg!
*I thought I'd be about 40 by the time we could do the kids thing, now we're talking about trying as soon as we're married
*I thought my job wouldn't get better and I'd leave after a year, but a new job was offered to me out of the blue

Life just astounds me, and I've never been so content and so lacking the need to want.