The b-znez

Today's intake: 1368 calories
Exercise: half an hour of swimming.

So it was my first visit to the gym today. It's silly but I felt quite nervous going so all I managed was a swim, which was actually quite nice for something different. I wanted to use the sauna too but there were two guys in there and I don't like the idea of locking myself in a tiny wooden box alone with two strange men. Not my idea of relaxing. Maybe next time.

I think I will wait for my personal training session before I use the 'equipment'. I have this mental image of me being a total spaz, not knowing how to work stuff (I have never set foot on a tread mill), and just generally drawing attention to myself and making a cock of myself.

I found it interesting that after giving blood last night I noticed I was craving salt and water big time. Tony made the most amazing lamb cutlets for dinner with roasted veg, but it didn't matter how much salt I added to my meal it just didn't taste like enough. I've been sucking down the H2O all day, but I never seem to quench my thirst. In fact writing this now is making me feel really thirsty!! :)

In other news I spoke to my potential new manager Daniel, we talked about what the job I hope to get involves. It will be so nice to have a change of scene, and be treated like an adult, not to have my toilet breaks timed, to be able to get work done in my own manner, and just to generally have more autonomy within my working week. Oh and drinks after work on Friday! Woot!

After my 'meeting' with Daniel, my friend Meicha who had the job before me received an e-mail from Daniel asking about me. Meicha being the sweetie she is told him that he should snap me up while he has the chance! It's always comforting to have a good word put in for you.

I think I will like this job. I am told it involves a lot of paper work, more than talking to people anyway. I kinda like paperwork, filing, that kind of thing, being organised, on top of things well ordered. People however I am sick of! The general public are sooo f#cking stupid it never ceases to amaze me. I'm not going to miss that one bit. I think if I get this job I'll feel more like an adult. I'll feel like it is a career move, and a smart one at that.

I need a bit of job satisfaction, and to see a path I can travel. It's felt like all closed doors of late.