Honesty is the best policy

In the interest of keep myself honest I am putting this down here for all to see...

I have signed up for the city to surf, and I am determined to do enough training in the next few weeks to do it comfortably. Also I am going to keep to my healthy eating habits.

So far today:
Ran 6km =568 calories or 2177Kj, which is equal to about 100g of chocolate, or 4 break off bars in a block. So that kinda puts things into perspective.

Today's food budget: 1500 calories.

Tonight I am off to see Lily Allen with Tony, Emma, Mark and Rich. So I have a feeling the food budget will be blown a bit with a drink or two. At least I've done some exercise though.

So the plan is to run at least 3 times a week, ideally 4.

2-3x my 6km Bibra Lake run, and then 1x my distance run which I think I'll start my stretch at 8km this week. It will hurt, but I know that is achievable. So hopefully by the time city to surf is here 12km will be fine.

My Mum is doing the city to surf too which is cool. It will be interesting to see who does the better time out of her and I. Last time I ran with her she had a quicker pace than me, but I think my stamina may be better than hers. We shall see.

Also I am interested in people's opinion here. What motivates you to put on your running stuff and go out the door for a run? What drives you to do it?

Love is a many wonderous thing

I've always maintained that I hate the saying 'my better half'. I'm not a half person and I don't need someone else to make me feel whole, but I have this over whelming feeling of right fit and completeness. Maybe i was wrong, perhaps I wasn't really whole before? Or is it that I feel more complete as a pair than one? I'm not sure.

Also, I wake up each day feeling more love than the previous day, and not just by a tiny bit, but by A LOT! I think to myself 'well I couldn't possibly feel more love than this', and then there I go the next day, MORE love, LOTS more love.

Getting the to do list done

Today was one of those 'get all my shit together' type days. I've re-arranged things with my bank, organised to see my Dad's accountant for tax time, and updated my address with various organisations.

I also went to the shops to get the fixin's for dinner tonight. As volleyball is an early one (6.30), we make a thing of having everyone over for dinner. Renee did the last one and now it's out turn. I'm making a vegetarian linguine with lots of mushrooms, garlic, cream and cheese. So fattening, but sooooo tasty!!

Pistol whipped cream

So it's been weird at work lately. Every time I come back from my weekend I find out someone has been fired. Firstly it was a girl who wrote money off on a friends insurance policy (what an idiot!). The weird thing was it's not like she was new and had no idea of the internal processes. She has worked there longer than me! She knows we get BQR reports which report any moneys written off every month. She knows all our calls are recorded, and she knows she shouldn't serve anyone who is a friend. I can't work it out, it's very strange!!

Then the other thing that happened was 2 guys and a girl got fired over sending porn via e-mail. The two guys were the 'turbo super gay' variety, and i believe they also got caught writing each other very explicit e-mails about naughty man on man business! The girl was done for just forwarding a whole bunch of 'funny' e-mails involving penises wearing french maids outfits! haha

In other work related news 2 friends of mine are leaving IAG for much more lucrative brokerage jobs. Neither of them are any more qualified than me, and so it now has me thinking about rather than moving up in the company, doing a side ways move to another company all together. Just by doing my job I have a cert 3 in financial services, so that means I have teir 2.

I am sure being a broker, or a brokers assistant will be a far more stressful job than I have right now. But I am up for the challenge, and need something new to sink my teeth into. So I shall be fixing up my resume, and I will start doing some research on what else is out there.

Childhood memories

Tony cleaned out our storage shed the other day only to find a nest of mice destroying my toys. One of which was a hand made stripped dog that my great Auntie had made me. She had given it to my parents when I was born, and so it hold special memories right through my childhood. This toy was so badly chewed on I have sadly had to throw it out. I keep trying to tell myself it is only a toy, material stuffed with foam and paper. But I can't help but feel like an old friend has died, and I must dispose of the toy with almost the same respect as you would a pet like a real cat or dog.

Kylie Agent Provocateur Video

Oh my!

My scaphoid, an update

Firstly: I f'ing hate hospitals.

So this morning I was to go back to Royal Perth's outpatient clinic for them to have another look and update me on my hand. Firstly it took about 3 hours to get my x-rays done, then I was told they needed to be re-done. I think they must have been having troubles all morning, and quite a few people had to get theirs re-done. So a few hours later the next ones were done, and then finally I was taken to another waiting room to speak to the Dr. I had to wait there for what seemed like hours. It seemed everyone was getting to go in but me. Just when I was about to speak to one of the nurses in case my file wasn't there and they had missed me or something, my name was called.

So the Dr told me it was a really weird place to get a fracture. He also said it hadn't healed very much, but this was due to the nature of the bone itself. As it has no direct attachment to anything it is notoriously hard to get it to heal. He said it may even be the case that it never heals, but it shouldn't cause any problems either way.

So he has told me another 4 weeks in the cast....bugger! So the cast will just prevent me from hurting myself if I have to suddenly use my wrist more than it actually needing to be help in that fixed position.

So anyway, a step in the right direction on the road to recovery, not exactly what I was hoping for, but better than nothing.

Today really sucked

I had a really awful day today. I went through various shades of emotion from fear, to disappointment, to sadness, then back to fear, to confusion to hurt. Then I got home I went from grumpy to upset and crying. And now the cherry on the top is a sort of empty sick feeling.

For sale

One slightly used game of 'risk'...previous owner was sick of getting his ass kicked by first time players.

What I've been up to...the weekend.

So firstly on Friday I had my big job interview. It consisted of 5 questions and then a 15 minute presentation of my monthly plan for the fictitious team stats we were given. Most of the questions revolved around leadership, my understanding of the management role and the usual 'what will you bring to the role' type questions. The other people I spoke to who had the interview said they were asked a lot of questions within them answering the questions. I myself wasn't asked much other than the original questions. I am guessing that is a good sign, as I must have given full answers, and they didn't need to prompt me. I am hoping to find out if I get the job late this week.

Later that evening Tony and I went a double datin' with Maggie and Matt. We went to go see a play called 'I love you, your perfect, now change'. It was all about couples and relationships. Right from young relationships, to marriage, to when your husband/wife has passed away from old age. We all enjoyed it a lot, but the best part for me would have been when Maggie asked me to be one of her bridesmaids. I am just really honoured that she wants me as part of her wedding party and can't wait to be involved.

Saturday was an exhausting day. Normally Saturdays at work consist of being really busy in the morning then dead quiet in the arvo. The lack of calls in the afternoon is what makes my 10 hour day bearable. However, this Saturday it just didn't stop all day!

I haven't been sleeping too well the last week and on Sat was already really tired. So by the time I got home from work I was actually feeling ill and crawled into bed (still fully clothed) as soon as i got in the door. So I slept from about 5.30 till I woke up at 9.30 feeling really hungry. I had some dinner, then went back to bed to sleep till about 8 the next morning, at which point I felt a million times better.

Sunday was a busy day. It consisted of breakfast with my family at Harvest restaurant in North Freo. My cousin Wes who was staying with my Mum and Dad was leaving that arvo to go back to Melbourne so it was a final goodbye breakfast. After that Tony and I came home, cleaned up our house, made some salad and chocolate dipped strawberries and went to Alex's birthday bash.

Renee had a gorgeous idea of planting trees in the little park behind her house as a way to celebrate the day. So we all pitched in and planted various lovely native plants. I wish I could go forward in time by 10 years and see what it looks like. Matt via Hoops got some sort of tree that is supposed to grow from the seedling to a 50M tall tree in 10 years. That will be amazing to see!! So anyway the day was lovely, we had some great food, and as always interesting conversation. Tony and I left about 5-ish with Aaron so I had time to get ready for my date with Maggie.

So Maggie and I have been talking for ages now about going out to dinner together somewhere flash. We thought it would be nice to have an opportunity to get all frocked up and go out on the town. So last night we went along to the bridges restaurant in North Fremantle. We had cocktails and a yummy dinner. I had squid and Maggie has porter house steak. We spent a really pleasant evening talking and catching up. At the end of the evening we even went and had a look at their function room as a possible idea for a wedding reception. Maggie seemed quite impressed as did Matt when he came to pick us up.

So it's been a busy few days, and today I am racking up some well earned couch time. Tony has just finished downloading a whole season of Simpsons that I haven't seen before. Yay!!

Sometimes

Sometimes I think I'm the richest person in the world, I won the people lottery.

Winter coat

I've always resented the fact that body hair on women is deemed to be 'gross' by western society. It's natural, it's how we are as adults and quite frankly it's how we are supposed to look, not to mention keeping our nether regions warm. Now I'll admit I pluck, shave and wax with the best of them. But I've always harboured a desire to have the confidence to go 'fck you society' and just let it all grow. If my bikini line manages to grow down to my knees so be it!!

Anyway in light of that, I though this line of womens clothing was wicked:

Gettin' my run on

This is the first week that I've seriously gotten back into running. There is a beautiful 6 km route around Bibra lake that I've now done 3 times this week. The first time I went with my sis, and we did half jog half walk. She is trying to get her fitness up too so I let her set the pace. The next time I went on my own, ran about 1km, walked half a km, then ran the last 3.5km. Then tonight i went with Jane again and she managed to run about 3km in one hit which was a wicked effort.

So I'm excited about the idea of Jane getting into running bigger distances with me. It will be wicked to have a running buddy who lives so close by. It's always great running with the Vic park guys, but Jane is only 5 minutes away.

In other sporting news I bought a bicycle pannier holder today. Tony Polony Macaroni reckons we can buy the panniers pretty cheap online. So hopefully by the time I'm good to jump back on my bike I'll have all the fruit on it! Weeee!

And they said we wouldn't make it

Today marks the anniversary of it being 6 months with my Tony Polony. How times flies when you're having fun.

What's missing?

Tonight I am in an odd mood. I've been feeling it since late this arvo and haven't been able to work it out, but now it has come to me. I miss a full house.

When I first moved out of North Freo and into my little nest in Cooby I was in heaven, and then when my beloved Tony moved in with me I couldn't have been happier. Now the novelty of a quiet clean house is starting to wear off a bit. Tony and I are getting into a few routines with our daily lives.

I miss the constant ins and outs of friends, and new potential friends. The house full of voices, footsteps, laughter and music, always music.

I went to Renee and Alex's place a few nights back for dinner with Tony; Ben and Faye were there too. The old gang was back together, it was nice. I was tired and a bit grumpy that night, but it was OK, I didn't have to pretend to be anything other than what I was feeling. They all know me well enough for me to just be.

Alex gave me a big hug at one point and said 'I really miss you'...I really miss them too.

Chewing the fat

Today was day 3 of my diet, I'm doing lite and easy again. It's one of those pre-packaged food type things. All the food is pretty nice really, I feel like I'm constantly eating, so I'm not ever hungry. Stopping eating after dinner is always my challenge. Despite all the food during the day and the fact I'm not actually hungry, I still crave sweet food at night. I've been a night time sweet tooth my whole life and have always struggled to stop eating after dinner.

I made some rice pudding, just a simple one with skim milk, brown sugar and a couple of vanilla pods. I figure as far as desserts go it's not too calorific, and it's certainly low fat. I also cooked up some apples with cinnamon and cloves to have with it.

I'm supposed to be doing 9km of the Perth marathon with Emma next weekend. I'm feeling a little stressed about it. In the last month the only exercise I have done is one 4 km run which almost killed me! I'm sooo unfit right now. Probably the most unfit I have been in about a year and a half.

I'm really chomping at the bit to get on my bike again. I went to visit Ben the other day and he fixed my broken bike for me the sweet heart. Both my wheels were a mess, not to mention my new bike seat was ripped and bent at an odd angle and my gears all scratched up. It's still not pretty, but at least it's safe and rideable again. Yay!!