I got the job!!

So today I finally found out, I got the job as an assistant underwriter for CGU Workers Compensation. I recently received a pay rise at my current position and was concerned that I would not be able to take that pay rise with me.

Daniel my new boss told me that although my current pay rate is higher than the top level for my new position, he was willing to make an exception to get me on board.

So I won't start until the 15th of October, which is a good thing. This way I can complete the quarter and get my full sales bonus. I'm just so excited to be doing something new, I can't wait!

vajayjay

The secret to a good marriage. Taken from 30 rock, which I highly recommend!

Weird!

I walked past the dry dog food isle in Kmart today and horror of all horrors, the smell made me hungry!! Argh!!!

City to surf

My knees hurt like hell, I am hobbling like an old woman. My hip is painful, my muscles ache and I keep getting muscle cramps in my calves. On the up side I'm so high on endorphins Tony is having a hard time keeping up with me.

So the aim for me was not so much to do a good time, but just to do it. Mission accomplished, I did it, I ran the whole thing even the hills. It took me an hour and a half...talk about slow! According to my HR monitor I burnt 1090 calories!! wow!!

Poor Ben who was getting a lift back and up the hill to Renee's birthday had to wait around for me. By the time I was done and found him he was shivering in his wet running clothes. Poor boy has not an ounce of fat on him to keep him warm. I found my bag with my jumper, which I gave to Ben. My jumper is a lovely shade of super-girly pink. He looked just fetching in it! hehe

Lunch in the hills was nice, but I was a little too pooped to be very conversational. We gave Renee a beautiful tajine from a freo pottery artist. She loved it, so that was wicked.

So now I am putting in some quality day bed time, things thing has totally paid for itself!!

SIngers

Last night we went to see Tecoma at Kulcha in Fremantle. Every time I see these sorts of female performers I am over come with an overwhelming urge to learn guitar, write a song and start to sing.

Unfortunately I know I have very little musical talent. I can hold a tune, but have no great strength to my voice, let alone a particularly interesting voice to listen to. I used to sing a lot when I was in High school, but those days are long gone. Now only the walls of my car get to hear me sing, which probably is for the best!

I guess I'll just have to keep living vicariously through others, and go to more concerts.

Time

Time for new thoughts, my head has been muddied with weariness and sadness too much of late. I don't like being sad or to dwell in dark thoughts. And so I choose now to be happy, to throw off this dark cloud and come out shining.

Tomorrow Tony and I will get new furniture, there is nothing in this world like retail therapy for sad days and a dreary mind. Thanks to a sale at Bedshed we will be getting 2 large chest of draws (his and hers) in a beautiful dark wood. So dark that it is almost black, with silver metal handles. The bed itself of the same wood is of a sleigh design, with an Asian twist. All 3 pieces of bargain prices furniture we got for about the same price as what you'd normally pay for the bed alone! The draws are almost a bit art deco in the roundness of their design.

Other happy notes: I have been enjoying nerding it up talking to Adam about music. By talking I mean writing a novel of an e-mail for him to read about music he should listen too from my collection. We did a big music swap some time ago and it has taken till now for me to write something as a guide.

Country music is a recent love of mine and by recent I mean the last 5 years. It is so nice to be able to share this love of music with someone else and know they will appreciate it. So few people of my generation get the country music thing.

I hope he finds some new gems for himself in amongst my prattle.

I fucking give up

My whole life I've been over weight, I've always been 'the big girl', 'the chubby girl', 'the funny girl (code for fat)', the nice girl ( more code for fat)'.

I thought I had it fixed, I thought I had the solution and had it beat.

I was wrong and now I give up. It doesn't seem to matter how much I run I can't budge even a gram of weight, I just keep getting heavier and heavier with every step of my running shoes.

I don't eat crap, I don't eat excessively, I eat sensibly 3 meals a day. I don't binge on chocolate, I don't drink a 6 pack every night. On paper I sound like someone who is fit and thin, but no, I'm getting fatter every day.

And so body: You fucking win, I give up!! Say hello to the next Mama Cass

Unless I get some kind of eating disorder I'm going to remain fat.

Maybe in a past life I was one of those annoying people who bragged about eating what I want and not putting on an ounce, and now this is my penance!!

Fuck you universe

I want to whinge

Tonight I did my 10 km run. It took me 1 hour 20 minutes and 930calories. Now I hurt, everywhere and not in a good way. Currently my right knee is achy, the soles of my feet hurt, my back feels compressed and my neck hurts. I think I need new shoes.

To top it all off, I was really tired an hour ago and fell asleep on the couch. Now that I have moved to bed I'm all awake and full of beans being silly and annoying Tony. Stupid happy hormones!!

I'm gonna bed tired tomorrow.

Oh and also can anyone recommend some good running music? So far I'm a fan of Shiloh, Fdel and Pendulum to run to. But I'm sick of them all and have no idea where to start. I'm not so up with the dance music you kids listen to these days. But loving breaks, and drum and bass. Hating electro...help!

Mail order brides

I was watching something on the news about mail order brides which got me thinking what sort of stuff is there online and what kind of women sign themselves up for this? So I was looking through one of these web sights with women mostly from the Ukraine and Russia. They are all gorgeous, not just pretty but beautiful!! Even the ones in the over 35 category are stunning.

So that got me thinking is there such a thing as mail order husband, and YES there is! The first site was American men, and they all looked retarded! Not just ugly, but dirty, having made no effort. I got to a point where I thought maybe this sight is a parody and not real? On second look, I'm pretty sure it's not serious. Most of these blokes look like axe murderers. I took the compatibility test. Apparently I am a perfect match for a fat French man who like to wear speedos who's name is Arnuad. Watch out Tony!!

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Smiles

Last night I laughed so hard with Tony I almost wet myself. I hope my life is always so full of happiness and laughter, some how I think it will be.

The b-znez

Today's intake: 1368 calories
Exercise: half an hour of swimming.

So it was my first visit to the gym today. It's silly but I felt quite nervous going so all I managed was a swim, which was actually quite nice for something different. I wanted to use the sauna too but there were two guys in there and I don't like the idea of locking myself in a tiny wooden box alone with two strange men. Not my idea of relaxing. Maybe next time.

I think I will wait for my personal training session before I use the 'equipment'. I have this mental image of me being a total spaz, not knowing how to work stuff (I have never set foot on a tread mill), and just generally drawing attention to myself and making a cock of myself.

I found it interesting that after giving blood last night I noticed I was craving salt and water big time. Tony made the most amazing lamb cutlets for dinner with roasted veg, but it didn't matter how much salt I added to my meal it just didn't taste like enough. I've been sucking down the H2O all day, but I never seem to quench my thirst. In fact writing this now is making me feel really thirsty!! :)

In other news I spoke to my potential new manager Daniel, we talked about what the job I hope to get involves. It will be so nice to have a change of scene, and be treated like an adult, not to have my toilet breaks timed, to be able to get work done in my own manner, and just to generally have more autonomy within my working week. Oh and drinks after work on Friday! Woot!

After my 'meeting' with Daniel, my friend Meicha who had the job before me received an e-mail from Daniel asking about me. Meicha being the sweetie she is told him that he should snap me up while he has the chance! It's always comforting to have a good word put in for you.

I think I will like this job. I am told it involves a lot of paper work, more than talking to people anyway. I kinda like paperwork, filing, that kind of thing, being organised, on top of things well ordered. People however I am sick of! The general public are sooo f#cking stupid it never ceases to amaze me. I'm not going to miss that one bit. I think if I get this job I'll feel more like an adult. I'll feel like it is a career move, and a smart one at that.

I need a bit of job satisfaction, and to see a path I can travel. It's felt like all closed doors of late.

Today

Just got back from running with Emma. We managed 8 km which was wicked. It is the furthest I have run in a long time. Also it was at a fairly quick pace for me. My heart rate was up in the 180s quite a bit and in the 190s toward the end when I did the last finally push. According to my heart rate monitor I burned 800 calories! woo hoo!!

Might give the spa and sauna thing a go later tonight at my new gym!

Zesty

Yesterday I joined Zest Health club which is just up the road from me. A pretty decent running distance actually. I think it would only take me about 15-20 minutes to run there, so a good warm up to whatever I am going to need to do.

I just a call from my 'personal trainer' Dane. He sounds hot! So that's a little bit intimidating right there. We talked about my goals, where my fitness is at the moment etc. So the aim is to lose about 10Kg in the next 2-3 months. If I can lose 15Kg all together that would be even better.

I think the good thing will be learning the most effective ways to exercise. I wonder if some times what I a doing although good for me perhaps isn't the most effective use of my time. I've been running about 4 times a week now, but I'm sure I could be doing better with that time, or doing things that challenge me more and give me a bit more of a push.

The other cool thing is I was given a few 'free pass' type things for friends. So the wicked thing about that is that next time Emma and I can't run due to rain we can go to my gym! We can use the treadmills, swim, use the sauna, take a RPM class, whatever! Woo hoo!

Oh and if anyone gets a call from Zest I do apologise, I had to put down a few names and numbers to get the passes. I figure you can just hang up on them, or delete any voicemail they might leave. Alternatively, I can give you one of my free passes to make up for it and you can come to the gym with me!

The weekend

Saturday was work of course. It was THE most boring day ever! However my sales stats looked amazing, so not all bad. Then Sat night I went along to Matt's brothers housewarming. I felt like a bit of a gate crasher as I had never met him before, but it was nice to meet him and his partner Neko, as well as Matt's Mum. Hopefully I will get a chance to properly meet his Dad another time.

Sunday started with breakfast out with Tony's old friends Leo, Sam, Bea, Ryan, Heather and Matt. I was so tired though I was really struggling to make conversation. It's hard enough when everyone is talking about people and events you don't know without feeling like you'll nod off to sleep again any minute. Despite that though it was nice to catch up with them. Tony has seen a lot of them since being with me, so it was good to see them all.

Mid Sunday I cleaned he house a bit. Lots of washing clothes and dishes. I am constantly amazed by how many clothes we have to wash! Which reminds me I have to pick up some dry cleaning. I've only just the other day gotten around to having our stuff from Boobalicious dry cleaned! It all sat in a bag in our spare room for weeks!

Then the highlight of the week was dinner at Mum and Dad's place. They had Ben, Alex, Renee, Jane, Mike, Tony and I over for tea. Mum made gorgeous pies for dinner. She made chicken ones, kangaroo ones and a vegie one. She also made her own pastry for them, so they were super delicious! We drank lots of red wine and talked utter crap as we always do. The sorts of conversations going between Dad, Alex and myself would make a whore blush!



Then to finish off the night Dad opened up a cellared bottle of 1972 port! It was soooo good. He was saying Tawny port keeps fine after you open it, but cellared port, once opened needs to be drunk or it goes off. So Alex and I being the helpful people we are obliged and got stuck into it!

Now my head hurts

Today

probably about 1800 calories

7km run (530calories)